Who listens when they’re 28 to what you’re going to be like when you’re 60? – well you don’t do you
Initially I did what I was supposed to do and then gradually I slipped back into my old ways
Sticking a pin in myself twice a day is OK, I can cope with that – it’s everything that goes with it – you’re eyesight, your kidneys and all that
I’ve got an ulcer on my foot and it’s stopped me working, stopped me going out, stopped me doing all the things I liked doing. It was a blister that became infected – I didn’t even know ‘cause my feet are pretty numb.
Because my feet were numb, because of the diabetes – most people when they’ve got a blister the think ‘that’s sore that is’ they think ‘ouch’ and they would have treated it, but I didn’t feel it.
The best part of being a man is being able to physically do things. I used to look after my wife and my mother in law. Now in this past year it’s come across me that I’m having to ask people to wait on me and look after me and that’s hard.
I’ve always been a free spirit and done what I wanted, so to be house bound and relying on other people puts me in a bad space in my head.
It’s the inability to be able to do the things in my life that I took for granted, that I used to be able to do.
You lose the sensation in your feet and you don’t realise until it’s in a bad way
I can only feel a bit of my toes and when you go in the bath your feet are white you’ve got to be very careful about hot water because you can scold your feet
The numbness is down to your diabetes – it’s your nerve endings
I’ve got aqueous cream but I have to admit I don’t use it as much as I should do. I have a shower every evening and that’s it really.
When I was younger I used to go out in the snow in my wellies and my feet were that cold they would go numb – that’s how my feet feel now permanently
A friend of mine had a foot ulcer for 6 years, they are problematic because of where they’re situated – every bit of movement even if you just walk to the loo there’s pressure because you’re moving all the time
You do get used to it (diabetes) but it doesn’t mean that I like it at all, in any way.
It’s constantly thinking about it – you can’t just do something spur of the moment
I’m glad of it in a way because it’s made me look at my diet, lose weight and I feel so much better for having done that.
I’m not going to say it’s an illness – it’s a way of life
I’m a person who’s got diabetes not a diabetic person
When you’re first diagnosed I think it’s apprehension of what it’s going to be like and I was more frightened when I had to have insulin – sticking needles in – I don’t think about it now but at the time I really did feel scared.
I started off with tablets and then insulin – when I said to my doctor ‘what is it that I’m doing wrong?’, he said ‘nothing, it’s just that your body is producing less and less insulin so you need more and more help with it, that’s all’
It meant that I was going to have to see the doctor on a regular basis and I was someone who had never really been to the doctors hardly – so that was an initial shock
Initially it was controlled with diet and I’d got that under control. I was a lot happier with things, although I was still annoyed that I’d always got to consider what I was eating all the time.
I think it’s important to try and manage your condition as best as possible, that’s how I see it.
You’re your own doctor really.
I’m concerned about my feet because they always say ‘look at your feet’
I worry about being disabled or being a burden to your loved ones. I couldn’t work or it I could it would be difficult….it could affect you fundamentally
Because I’ve lost a little bit of sensation in my feet, how do I know if they’re badly fitting until I get a blister?
I wore stiletto heels and then I had a bunion on my foot. I had some lovely shoes but now I’m down to two pairs, which is not funny. Because when I had my bunion done the specialist said to me more women have problems with their feet because of the kind of shoes they wear. I left the hospital and I thought ‘this is it’ – I didn’t chuck them all but I do still wear them for a little while. I was at a christening yesterday and I had to wear my high heel shoes and then I went home in my flat shoes.
You say choose your footwear carefully – in what way? I might say I’m carefully choosing those shoes because they’re a lovely shade of red.
When I see my doctor I’m thinking to myself, ‘Oh my feet are killing me’, but I don’t want to admit it because I don’t want to feel like I’ve failed.
I was just in denial really. I could understand if I’d broken my leg and had to have a plaster cast but I can’t understand this thing inside me.
It’s part of my life really, but I do still struggle with it. I’m still getting caught out with food
I don’t see it as a disability but I do see it as being in my own hands to a certain extent
I was naive – I thought it can’t to that much damage to you surely
I’m much more aware now of everything I’m supposed to do and everything I’m not supposed to do
I think it’s manageable with all the help you get. You obviously rely on yourself but you’ve got a lot of back up if you want it.
All the effort I’m putting in is coming back to me and I feel quite good because I’m achieving something
After an initial dip with in the first few months I just felt so well, better than I had in years and then that probably continued for a couple of years really and everything was well balanced. But then after time complacency sets in a bit
One thing they told me when I was first diagnosed was that whenever I pick up any shoes always check the inside. Because you might not be aware that your toes are not as sensitive as they used to be and if you get pricked by the shoe leather that can cause major problems
My feet, they’re just there in my socks. I don’t think anything of them. I dry between my toes and whatever but other than that I do nothing.
I have to look where my feet are every time I get up otherwise I don’t know where they are now